What did I do wrong? Why now? Not everything was perfect, but it wasn't this bad. People always say to never say never, to never think you'll be different, to think that maybe this time will be different than the last. Maybe to you I was an answer of loneliness, but to me, you weren't. You were an answer to the question I once asked, "What is love?" I knew the answer.
This time last yearI had these same thoughts and feelings, will I next year, too? Why do I do this to myself? I should have known, but I hoped it would be different. Something like 95% of all long distance relationships break up within the first five months, I guess that's when things hit the fan for my relationship.
I didn't want the relationship to change, but you said you knew I would drink and party, and all that. I took that as you saying I could, otherwise, I still wouldn't know what getting drunk was.
With everything involved in the relationship, I thought the distance would be the least of our concerns. But we didn't have enough to talk about, I couldn't keep you interested anymore, so that means it's time for you to move on. This isn't all your fault, like I make it sound, it's mine too. I don't know what I've done, but I know I'm partly responsible.
I don't even know if you read this blog anymore, but if you do, next time you read this, know that I wanted to wait for you. You weren't comfortable or didn't like something, I'd change it. You have made me a better man, apparently I had no effect on you.